Not everyone feels joy around the holidays. This song emerged from the loss of my grandmother and the grief experienced after the unexpected departure of my father. It's a sincere and vulnerable song, capturing the complicated intricacies of navigating the holidays and preserving cherished memories after your loved ones are no longer with you.
Lyrics
I think about this holiday all year
I’ve hung up all my lights and I’ve tried to feel the cheer
And I think about you all the time
Even though you’re no longer here
I still feel you near
But it’s extra hard to be without the ones you love
This time of year
I got my Christmas tree today
I set up the nativity and hung my head to pray
And I’ve dusted off my ornaments
And jolly old St Nicks red sleigh
I’ve never done it this way
It’s so different but yet the same
Another Christmas here without you
Another holiday to get through
I try to honor the traditions
The memories I hold so true
I have to learn to make do
But despite the red and white and green
Without you
Christmas feels blue
The stockings were all hung on the chimney with care
The smell of morning coffee brewing wafts through the air
And I’m happy and i’m grateful but there’s one empty chair
The record player spins over there
It’s singing “it’s the most wonderful time of the year”
Another Christmas here without you
Another holiday to get through